I'm not too happy about today's weigh in, but it also was not a very big surprise. I actually gained 1 lb. this week :( I hated seeing that on the scale, but like I said, I was not shocked. I have not worked out this week as much as I needed to. My treadmill is having issues, there is something wrong with the electrical system. I can walk for 2 min. and then it just quits and then if I turn it off and then back on, I can walk for another 2 min. then it shuts off etc. Sort of frustrating!
I have been doing some Tae bo, from some old VHS tapes that I have. It is a good work out, but I am only doing the basic workout at this point which is only about 25 min. I also have not been very active this week, just in my normal daily life. AND .. let's just say, it has been that time of the month.
As far as diet. I have done ok this week, but I am still struggling with how to best deal with the food journal. I did not keep track this week, I am just not in the habit of writing it down. So, I need to decide today which way I am going to 100% commit to doing it, either journal on here every night or keep a written food journal. I need to do one or the other, it helps my self control.
So, all things considered, it makes sense that I didn't lose weight this week and that I am up a little bit. This next week will be much better. My goal for this next week is 4 lbs.
Just as a side note, there was an open casting call for The Biggest Loser yesterday in Mesa. On a whim, I decided to go and try out. It was a very interesting experience! I got to the Superstition Springs Mall at about 7:20 am. I was #249 in line. We waited in line until about 12:45pm when a group of 10 of us went in, sat at a table, had about 30 seconds to introduce ourselves and then that was it. It was over (we also had filled out a one page application and gave them a picture of ourselves) They did the call backs last night. I didn't get a call :(
The thing that was so interesting about the day, well actually a couple of things were ... first, I kept being told that I was too thin to be there. I made my best attempt at sticking out my gut and trying to look fatter and yet people kept thinking I shouldn't be there! lol They require that you have at least 100 lbs to lose, and I do, but because of my height, I carry my weight differently and I am also blessed not to carry weight in my face, so I guess it can be deceiving. But what an incredibly strange feeling to feel out of place and uncomfortable because I didn't weigh enough!
The second thing that was interesting. There were a group of 4 of us that started talking in line and we just hit it off. We had a great time chatting and making each other laugh and passing the time. The part that was interesting is that we had SO many people come up to us (just random people shopping in the mall) to ask us what everyone was standing in line for. I know that does not sound very interesting and maybe other groups of people not near us in line had the same experience but it was like we had "Information Desk" written on our backs and didn't know it. We had some funny experiences with some people, one older Asian lady that just could not get the concept and kept asking if we were waiting to purchase tickets. I would tell her no,"we are waiting to interview to be on the show" and she would say, "oh, so you are waiting to buy tickets to see the show" to which I would reply, "no, we want to be on the show" she said, "OH!!! ok" and walked off to the nearby Paradise Bakery, only to return 3 min. later. "So, you are waiting to buy tickets so you can go and see the show?" LOL ... we were dying. She seriously could not get it.
Anyhow, I had an enjoyable time. I appreciate everyone's support. They told us that if we didn't get called back that we should for sure do a video application etc. But I won't bother. I really only have about 7 more lbs. before I don't qualify to be on the show. (though I had a good friend suggest that I go and gain a bunch of weight and try again! lol) So, I will just keep working hard and lose it myself! :) Anyone wanna pay me $250,000 for losing it all? Any takers? LOL
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
03/24
So, I haven't posted for a few days, so I figured it is time to catch up a little bit! :) Things are going okay this week. This cold is still hanging on and sapping quite a bit of my energy, however, I have still been able to work out every day, just not as much as I would like to. I am also still having some issues with my knee. I am going to try a knee brace tomorrow and see if that makes a difference.
Tomorrow is my husband and my anniversary :) 6 years of pure bliss! :) We are going on a date tomorrow night, so I am allowing myself a little bit of a cheat since we are going out to dinner. I still plan on being careful, but I think we are going to Aunt Chiladas, so it might be a little bit difficult.
Biggest Loser is doing an open casting call in Mesa on Saturday. I am considering going and putting in an application. Not sure what I would do with my 5 kids if it ever ended up that I made it on. But that is so far from reality at this point, I shouldn't worry about it. :)
Tomorrow is my husband and my anniversary :) 6 years of pure bliss! :) We are going on a date tomorrow night, so I am allowing myself a little bit of a cheat since we are going out to dinner. I still plan on being careful, but I think we are going to Aunt Chiladas, so it might be a little bit difficult.
Biggest Loser is doing an open casting call in Mesa on Saturday. I am considering going and putting in an application. Not sure what I would do with my 5 kids if it ever ended up that I made it on. But that is so far from reality at this point, I shouldn't worry about it. :)
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Week 2 Weigh in
I lost 2 lbs this week!
It is a smaller number, but I am still very pleased with it. I did not do as well this week with my diet, and being that I lost a large amount last week, I expected a small number and feared that I would not lose any weight. So, I am very pleased with 2 lbs.
I am going to change the way that I do my food log. I have not been very consistent in blogging each night to record my food, so I am just going to keep a food journal notebook in my kitchen. Write everything down and then transfer it to the blog at least once a week if not more often.
Thanks again for everyone's support and taking the time to read this and leave encouraging comments. It helps so much! You all are fabulous! :)
By the way. I am feeling much better. Still have a little bit of a sore throat, but nothing I can't deal with. Also, my knee is feeling better. It is still a little bit sore, but I was able to walk 5 miles yesterday without any problems. I think I am just going to lay off the running for a few more days, my poor joints are supporting a ton of extra weight!
It is a smaller number, but I am still very pleased with it. I did not do as well this week with my diet, and being that I lost a large amount last week, I expected a small number and feared that I would not lose any weight. So, I am very pleased with 2 lbs.
I am going to change the way that I do my food log. I have not been very consistent in blogging each night to record my food, so I am just going to keep a food journal notebook in my kitchen. Write everything down and then transfer it to the blog at least once a week if not more often.
Thanks again for everyone's support and taking the time to read this and leave encouraging comments. It helps so much! You all are fabulous! :)
By the way. I am feeling much better. Still have a little bit of a sore throat, but nothing I can't deal with. Also, my knee is feeling better. It is still a little bit sore, but I was able to walk 5 miles yesterday without any problems. I think I am just going to lay off the running for a few more days, my poor joints are supporting a ton of extra weight!
Friday, March 19, 2010
3/19
I haven't been as consistent in being accountable with my food log as I should be and it is being reflected in the way that I am eating. Not that I have totally gone crazy or anything, but I just have not eaten as I should.
I have been having some issues with my left knee. I don't think it has responded well to having to hold me up as I walk and run every day :) Yesterday it was KILLING me! I still walked 4 miles in the morning yesterday, but then I was hobbling around all day after that and it was just radiating pain all day. I had decided to take a day off from exercising today. Worked out well, timing wise because I actually woke up sick also! :( All last week I was fighting off a cold, I thought I got over it, but this morning I woke up with my throat on fire and without a voice. I plan on taking care of myself today and I expect to be up and going again for tomorrow.
My food log for yesterday:
Access Bar
8 oz protein shake
5 thinly sliced ham lunch meat
1 small banana
3 oz turkey breast
1 c. asparagus risoto
2 granola bars (these were clearly not the best choice, but I was having a major sugar craving, so I got these bars, they are actually chex mix bars, with the chex cereal, caramel and some chocolate chips)
my hubby and I went on a date and for dinner went to Panda Express. I have never noticed before but they have a low calorie menu. I got the steamed rice with string bean chicken and beef with broccoli, both of which are supposed to be under 250 calories. I ate about 3/4 of the meal.
So, not what I would consider a perfect day as far as the menu is concerned. And I am afraid I am not off to the best start this morning either. Since I am sick, I stayed in bed all morning until I had to take the kids to band and the bus stop. By that time I was starving so I grabbed a bag of trailmix and ate probably 3/4 c - 1 c. of that while I was driving everyone around. I will be better for the rest of the day! :)
I have been having some issues with my left knee. I don't think it has responded well to having to hold me up as I walk and run every day :) Yesterday it was KILLING me! I still walked 4 miles in the morning yesterday, but then I was hobbling around all day after that and it was just radiating pain all day. I had decided to take a day off from exercising today. Worked out well, timing wise because I actually woke up sick also! :( All last week I was fighting off a cold, I thought I got over it, but this morning I woke up with my throat on fire and without a voice. I plan on taking care of myself today and I expect to be up and going again for tomorrow.
My food log for yesterday:
Access Bar
8 oz protein shake
5 thinly sliced ham lunch meat
1 small banana
3 oz turkey breast
1 c. asparagus risoto
2 granola bars (these were clearly not the best choice, but I was having a major sugar craving, so I got these bars, they are actually chex mix bars, with the chex cereal, caramel and some chocolate chips)
my hubby and I went on a date and for dinner went to Panda Express. I have never noticed before but they have a low calorie menu. I got the steamed rice with string bean chicken and beef with broccoli, both of which are supposed to be under 250 calories. I ate about 3/4 of the meal.
So, not what I would consider a perfect day as far as the menu is concerned. And I am afraid I am not off to the best start this morning either. Since I am sick, I stayed in bed all morning until I had to take the kids to band and the bus stop. By that time I was starving so I grabbed a bag of trailmix and ate probably 3/4 c - 1 c. of that while I was driving everyone around. I will be better for the rest of the day! :)
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
3/17/10
Well, I haven't posted in a few days. Things have been very busy. But I have had good days. I have continued to wake up at 5 am and workout. I have done well with my diet at well.
One of the main things that I have noticed most this week is a huge increase of energy. I would think it would be opposite since I am getting less sleep, expending more energy etc. But I have found that I am full of energy and do not need a daily nap. For those of you who know me well, know that this is amazing! I am a napper! But I have not been feeling like taking naps. Instead I have been using that quiet time (while my babies are asleep) to get some extra house cleaning done or phone calls for my business. I know that this increase of energy is due to the incredible vitamins I am taking. I am SO grateful for them! I am feeling awesome! :)
I had an experience with my oldest daughter the other day that just reinforced my motivation to keep doing what I am doing. She is 7 years old and a bean pole. She was concerned about the fact that when she laid her leg down on the couch her calf squished up a little bit and looked "more fat" I assured her that it was not fat and that it is perfectly normal. She then asked if it is possible to make your legs skinnier. I told her yes, but that she did not need to worry about that because she is very thin. She said, "well, I am now, but what about when I grow up and get fat" I told her that she was never going to be fat. Her response was, "Well, you were skinny when you were a little girl too, now you are fat, so won't I be fat when I get older like you?" I DO NOT WANT my children (especially daughters) to believe that it is normal or needed to be heavy. I am so excited about the prospect of showing them a different example!
Today's food log:
Access Fat Conversion bar
ProFlex protein shake
1/2 grapefruit
12 oz. Fiberwise drink
1 oz pollock (baked)
1 c. asparagus risoto
1/2 grapefruit
1 kiwi
3 shrimp tacos
a few sips of my hubby's baja blast
I am looking forward to my weigh in on Sunday :)
One of the main things that I have noticed most this week is a huge increase of energy. I would think it would be opposite since I am getting less sleep, expending more energy etc. But I have found that I am full of energy and do not need a daily nap. For those of you who know me well, know that this is amazing! I am a napper! But I have not been feeling like taking naps. Instead I have been using that quiet time (while my babies are asleep) to get some extra house cleaning done or phone calls for my business. I know that this increase of energy is due to the incredible vitamins I am taking. I am SO grateful for them! I am feeling awesome! :)
I had an experience with my oldest daughter the other day that just reinforced my motivation to keep doing what I am doing. She is 7 years old and a bean pole. She was concerned about the fact that when she laid her leg down on the couch her calf squished up a little bit and looked "more fat" I assured her that it was not fat and that it is perfectly normal. She then asked if it is possible to make your legs skinnier. I told her yes, but that she did not need to worry about that because she is very thin. She said, "well, I am now, but what about when I grow up and get fat" I told her that she was never going to be fat. Her response was, "Well, you were skinny when you were a little girl too, now you are fat, so won't I be fat when I get older like you?" I DO NOT WANT my children (especially daughters) to believe that it is normal or needed to be heavy. I am so excited about the prospect of showing them a different example!
Today's food log:
Access Fat Conversion bar
ProFlex protein shake
1/2 grapefruit
12 oz. Fiberwise drink
1 oz pollock (baked)
1 c. asparagus risoto
1/2 grapefruit
1 kiwi
3 shrimp tacos
a few sips of my hubby's baja blast
I am looking forward to my weigh in on Sunday :)
Monday, March 15, 2010
Monday 3/15
Today was a decent day, though I am disappointed in myself because I gave into the late night snack craving. :( I ate a bunch of Doritos, probably about 2 serving worth .. which is about 14 chips per serving
I did get up at 5 am and got on the treadmill. 3.5 miles again today with 10 min. walking and 3 min. sprinting alternated. It is getting easier, which is a good sign. Although, my left knee is not enjoying the running very much .. oh well, it can get over itself! :) I also went a on a short walk this afternoon with the kids, but it way maybe 1/2 - 3/4 of a mile, so nothing big to brag about.
Today was a very emotional day for me. Lots of negative things and some positive things too. Normally my natural instinct would be to run to food. I did withstand the desire to do so, but that may be one of the reasons I ate the Doritos.
Food Log for the day:
Access Fat Conversion bar
1/2 grapefruit
ProFlex protein shake with 1 scoop FiberWise high fiber drink and also a handful of blueberries
4 slices of ham lunch meat
2 kiwi
Attain meal replacement bar (Salty and Sweet)
4 "ants on a log" (celery with peanut butter and raisins)
2 stuffed portobello mushrooms (one stuffed with spinach, salsa, 2 T feta cheese 2 T Parmesan cheese the other stuffed with grilled garlic and 2 T Parmesan cheese.
about 25 Doritos :(
Tomorrow will be a better day! :)
I did get up at 5 am and got on the treadmill. 3.5 miles again today with 10 min. walking and 3 min. sprinting alternated. It is getting easier, which is a good sign. Although, my left knee is not enjoying the running very much .. oh well, it can get over itself! :) I also went a on a short walk this afternoon with the kids, but it way maybe 1/2 - 3/4 of a mile, so nothing big to brag about.
Today was a very emotional day for me. Lots of negative things and some positive things too. Normally my natural instinct would be to run to food. I did withstand the desire to do so, but that may be one of the reasons I ate the Doritos.
Food Log for the day:
Access Fat Conversion bar
1/2 grapefruit
ProFlex protein shake with 1 scoop FiberWise high fiber drink and also a handful of blueberries
4 slices of ham lunch meat
2 kiwi
Attain meal replacement bar (Salty and Sweet)
4 "ants on a log" (celery with peanut butter and raisins)
2 stuffed portobello mushrooms (one stuffed with spinach, salsa, 2 T feta cheese 2 T Parmesan cheese the other stuffed with grilled garlic and 2 T Parmesan cheese.
about 25 Doritos :(
Tomorrow will be a better day! :)
Sunday, March 14, 2010
FIRST WEEK'S WEIGH IN!!!!!
Got on the scale first thing this morning. My current weight is ......
267
I lost 6.5 lbs!!!!
I guess you can tell from the many exclamation marks that I am pretty pleased with that amount! It certainly gives me the motivation to keep doing what I am doing, and improve upon it!
267
I lost 6.5 lbs!!!!
I guess you can tell from the many exclamation marks that I am pretty pleased with that amount! It certainly gives me the motivation to keep doing what I am doing, and improve upon it!
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Saturday
I am going to make it brief tonight .. I am exhuasted!
Had a good day. Did Tae-bo for my work out this morning. It has been years since I have done it .. it really kicked my butt!
Nervous, yet looking forward to my weigh in tomorrow morning. Anxious to see if all my hard work is paying off!
Food Log
Access Fat Conversion Bar
vanilla protein shake
1/2 grapefruit
mango with lime
3 bites of birthday cake
stuffed portabelo mushroom ("stuffed" with garlic and herbs and 2 Tbs. of parmesan cheese)
2 oz grilled salmon
1/2 grapefruit
5 wheat thins
1 hard boiled egg
Until tomorrow! :)
Had a good day. Did Tae-bo for my work out this morning. It has been years since I have done it .. it really kicked my butt!
Nervous, yet looking forward to my weigh in tomorrow morning. Anxious to see if all my hard work is paying off!
Food Log
Access Fat Conversion Bar
vanilla protein shake
1/2 grapefruit
mango with lime
3 bites of birthday cake
stuffed portabelo mushroom ("stuffed" with garlic and herbs and 2 Tbs. of parmesan cheese)
2 oz grilled salmon
1/2 grapefruit
5 wheat thins
1 hard boiled egg
Until tomorrow! :)
Friday, March 12, 2010
Friday March 12
Today was a good day! It is my son Kaden's 11th birthday. We had a fun time celebrating and I even refrained from cake and ice cream! :)
I also reminded myself today that I am capable of anything if I put my mind to it. My treadmill was acting up this morning. My husband just replaced the walking belt on Sunday because it was over stretched and slipping as I tried to walk. It worked great on Monday and Tuesday, but then on Wed. and Thurs. it was starting to slip again. This morning it was horrible. To the point that I didn't feel safe walking/running on it. But I didn't want to miss my work out. So, I just went and got my husband's tools and fixed it myself! :) I know that doesn't sound that significant and it really was not a very hard process, but there are certain things that I depend on my husband to take care of for me .. fixing things around the house and fixing anything electronic, especially computers. In the past I would have just got off the treadmill, and because it was 5 am and not wanting to wake him, I would have just gone back to bed or something. But I didn't. Again, I know this does not sound all that significant, but I guess it was just a reminder to me that I am capable of doing it, whatever "it" is.
So, I did 3.5 miles on the treadmill this morning. Walking 10 min. and sprinting 3. I also went on a 3 +/- mile walk with my kids as they rode bikes. I am exhausted tonight and my foot hurts. I have 2 huge blisters in the strangest places! One is in between my big toe and second toe and the other one is on the ball of my foot just below my big toe?!?! What is up with that? Why am I getting blisters there? Maybe I need new socks?
I have been feeling nervous about my "weigh in" on Sunday. I haven't felt like I have lost any weight .. and I realize it hasn't even been a week yet .. so what am I expecting? But still, I have been dreading it. However, today I put a pair of jeans on that have been quite tight recently, and I actually think they fit just a tiny bit looser .. it may just be in my mind, but that is okay. I will go with it! :) One more day until weigh in!
Food Log for today:
Access Fat Conversion bar
1/2 grapefruit
8 oz ProFlex protein shake with 1 scoop Fiberwise drink mix
1/2 grapefruit
2 oz of grilled steak
4 slices of ham (thin lunch meat style)
handful (about 10) toasted wheat thins
1 oz pork rib
2 oz grilled salmon
1 ear corn on the cob
fresh veggies (peas, carrots, grape tomatoes, broccoli)
I also took my AM pack of vitamins and will take my PM pack here in a minute before I go to bed.
p.s. in the spirit of full disclosure .. I did lick icing off my finger twice as I was decorating Kaden's birthday cake .. which my 20 month old actually got to before we had a chance to serve it! She was covered in blue icing! What a spaz! lol
Well, I am off to bed so that I can get up nice and early for my "last chance workout" tomorrow! :)
I also reminded myself today that I am capable of anything if I put my mind to it. My treadmill was acting up this morning. My husband just replaced the walking belt on Sunday because it was over stretched and slipping as I tried to walk. It worked great on Monday and Tuesday, but then on Wed. and Thurs. it was starting to slip again. This morning it was horrible. To the point that I didn't feel safe walking/running on it. But I didn't want to miss my work out. So, I just went and got my husband's tools and fixed it myself! :) I know that doesn't sound that significant and it really was not a very hard process, but there are certain things that I depend on my husband to take care of for me .. fixing things around the house and fixing anything electronic, especially computers. In the past I would have just got off the treadmill, and because it was 5 am and not wanting to wake him, I would have just gone back to bed or something. But I didn't. Again, I know this does not sound all that significant, but I guess it was just a reminder to me that I am capable of doing it, whatever "it" is.
So, I did 3.5 miles on the treadmill this morning. Walking 10 min. and sprinting 3. I also went on a 3 +/- mile walk with my kids as they rode bikes. I am exhausted tonight and my foot hurts. I have 2 huge blisters in the strangest places! One is in between my big toe and second toe and the other one is on the ball of my foot just below my big toe?!?! What is up with that? Why am I getting blisters there? Maybe I need new socks?
I have been feeling nervous about my "weigh in" on Sunday. I haven't felt like I have lost any weight .. and I realize it hasn't even been a week yet .. so what am I expecting? But still, I have been dreading it. However, today I put a pair of jeans on that have been quite tight recently, and I actually think they fit just a tiny bit looser .. it may just be in my mind, but that is okay. I will go with it! :) One more day until weigh in!
Food Log for today:
Access Fat Conversion bar
1/2 grapefruit
8 oz ProFlex protein shake with 1 scoop Fiberwise drink mix
1/2 grapefruit
2 oz of grilled steak
4 slices of ham (thin lunch meat style)
handful (about 10) toasted wheat thins
1 oz pork rib
2 oz grilled salmon
1 ear corn on the cob
fresh veggies (peas, carrots, grape tomatoes, broccoli)
I also took my AM pack of vitamins and will take my PM pack here in a minute before I go to bed.
p.s. in the spirit of full disclosure .. I did lick icing off my finger twice as I was decorating Kaden's birthday cake .. which my 20 month old actually got to before we had a chance to serve it! She was covered in blue icing! What a spaz! lol
Well, I am off to bed so that I can get up nice and early for my "last chance workout" tomorrow! :)
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Thursday
Ok, so I missed a day of blogging my food journal. I went to bed so late last night and didn't feel up to blogging, planned on doing it this morning, but the day got away from me, and I didn't write it down, so I don't remember everything I ate. I do remember that I did "cheat" a little bit and ate 1/2 snack size bag of sun chips. Other than that I think it was an overall good day, diet wise.
I also did get on the treadmill and did some interval training. I walked 10 min. and then sprinted for 2 min. It was supposed to be more like 5 min. walking and then 2 1/2 min. sprinting ... but there was no way! I felt like I was going to die! I don't know if you watch Biggest Loser, but I do. There are so many times when Jillian is screaming at someone to keep sprinting, but they keep giving up just a few seconds before they are supposed to be done, then they have to do it all over again. I usually sit here and think "What a wuss! Just do it" Well, after yesterday, I have a different perspective. Sprinting sucks!!!! :)
Today was a great day playing with the family. I did sleep in and didn't get on the treadmill today, but I still managed to get some decent exercise. We took the kids to Pump It Up this morning. Man! Have you ever done the obstacle courses there? That is a work out! I wish I could say that I spent the whole hour doing the obstacle course over and over again, but I can't. My first time through I lost my sweats .. yeah .. I ended up mooning everyone as I was climbing up one of the walls! (Our family was not the only ones there .. we had a group of friends with us)
This afternoon we went for a 3 mile walk (kids on their bikes). It was great to get some exercise with the whole family! We will be doing that more often!
Food log for today:
2 cups of cheerios
1 banana
3/4 cup 1% milk
2 shrimp tacos
1 grilled chicken taco
4 oz grilled steak
sauted mushrooms
rice pilaf
raw veggies (carrots, grape tomatos, peas, celery and broccoli) I did dip a few of those in some ranch dressing :(
I also did get on the treadmill and did some interval training. I walked 10 min. and then sprinted for 2 min. It was supposed to be more like 5 min. walking and then 2 1/2 min. sprinting ... but there was no way! I felt like I was going to die! I don't know if you watch Biggest Loser, but I do. There are so many times when Jillian is screaming at someone to keep sprinting, but they keep giving up just a few seconds before they are supposed to be done, then they have to do it all over again. I usually sit here and think "What a wuss! Just do it" Well, after yesterday, I have a different perspective. Sprinting sucks!!!! :)
Today was a great day playing with the family. I did sleep in and didn't get on the treadmill today, but I still managed to get some decent exercise. We took the kids to Pump It Up this morning. Man! Have you ever done the obstacle courses there? That is a work out! I wish I could say that I spent the whole hour doing the obstacle course over and over again, but I can't. My first time through I lost my sweats .. yeah .. I ended up mooning everyone as I was climbing up one of the walls! (Our family was not the only ones there .. we had a group of friends with us)
This afternoon we went for a 3 mile walk (kids on their bikes). It was great to get some exercise with the whole family! We will be doing that more often!
Food log for today:
2 cups of cheerios
1 banana
3/4 cup 1% milk
2 shrimp tacos
1 grilled chicken taco
4 oz grilled steak
sauted mushrooms
rice pilaf
raw veggies (carrots, grape tomatos, peas, celery and broccoli) I did dip a few of those in some ranch dressing :(
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Day 2 in
I apologize for not posting last night. By the time I was done with my day I was exhausted and could not even think straight. I think I picked a tough week to start this whole lifestyle change thing. The kids are on Spring Break! It is not a huge deal, but it has been raining all week, so they have been stuck inside. I have been a little bit sore and cranky. The combination of me being cranky and 5 kids in the house all day, is not an ideal situation! But it is ok. I will get through it and all will be great! :)
I want to thank everyone who has stopped by and especially for your words of support. It really does make a difference! This morning, I really did not want to get up at 5:00am. I was so sound asleep and comfortable. When the alarm went off I considered just going back to sleep. But then I thought about the fact that I would have admit on here that I got lazy after only three days! So, I got my self out of bed and went for it! So, thank you for your support!
My food log for yesterday was as follows:
*Access bar
*8 oz proflex protein shake with 4 frozen strawberries and 1 scoop of fiberwise high fiber drink. This tasted kinda nasty, I think it was the fact that it was chocolate, strawberries and peach flavored fiberwise. I will try different combinations and may just end up drinking the shake plain because it is VERY yummy plain!
*3/4 cup brown rice with 1 cup shredded chicken cooked in carne asada sauce
*2 small hand fulls of roasted almonds
*1 apple
*4 oz chicken breast grilled with BBQ sauce
*6 asparagus and 1 tbs. of mayo made with Olive oil (much less fat)
*1/2 cup spinach with balsamic vinegar
*1 cup rice pilaf (this is a family favorite, but I changed up the recipe to make it more healthy. Normally you saute a package of vermicelli in 1/4 c. butter and white rice, mushrooms and a strong chicken broth and then simmer, last night I used whole wheat thin spaghetti, sauteed it in 1 tbs olive oil, used brown rice and fat free, low sodium chicken broth. It was okay, but next time I will make a stronger broth, it needed a bit more flavor.
My mom called yesterday and read me an article about a study that was done recently where they had 2 different groups of people. One group ate 1/2 of a grapefruit before each meal. the other group ate the same exact meal, but the group that included the grapefruit lost substantially more weight. I am going to give it a try. I will be going to buy grapefruit today! :)
I want to thank everyone who has stopped by and especially for your words of support. It really does make a difference! This morning, I really did not want to get up at 5:00am. I was so sound asleep and comfortable. When the alarm went off I considered just going back to sleep. But then I thought about the fact that I would have admit on here that I got lazy after only three days! So, I got my self out of bed and went for it! So, thank you for your support!
My food log for yesterday was as follows:
*Access bar
*8 oz proflex protein shake with 4 frozen strawberries and 1 scoop of fiberwise high fiber drink. This tasted kinda nasty, I think it was the fact that it was chocolate, strawberries and peach flavored fiberwise. I will try different combinations and may just end up drinking the shake plain because it is VERY yummy plain!
*3/4 cup brown rice with 1 cup shredded chicken cooked in carne asada sauce
*2 small hand fulls of roasted almonds
*1 apple
*4 oz chicken breast grilled with BBQ sauce
*6 asparagus and 1 tbs. of mayo made with Olive oil (much less fat)
*1/2 cup spinach with balsamic vinegar
*1 cup rice pilaf (this is a family favorite, but I changed up the recipe to make it more healthy. Normally you saute a package of vermicelli in 1/4 c. butter and white rice, mushrooms and a strong chicken broth and then simmer, last night I used whole wheat thin spaghetti, sauteed it in 1 tbs olive oil, used brown rice and fat free, low sodium chicken broth. It was okay, but next time I will make a stronger broth, it needed a bit more flavor.
My mom called yesterday and read me an article about a study that was done recently where they had 2 different groups of people. One group ate 1/2 of a grapefruit before each meal. the other group ate the same exact meal, but the group that included the grapefruit lost substantially more weight. I am going to give it a try. I will be going to buy grapefruit today! :)
Monday, March 8, 2010
Day 1
So today went pretty good. I woke up at 5 am, ate my Access (fat conversion bar) and got on the treadmill. I walked 4 miles and very slowly jogged 1 mile. I planned on doing another couple of miles, but I had an awful cramp in my left butt cheek and my 20 month old needed a diaper change, so I used that as my excuse to get off. But I still feel pretty good about the 5 miles.
FOOD LOG:
Access bar (Fat conversion bar)
3 egg whites with a pinch of Parmesan cheese
1 apple
Fiber Wise (high fiber drink)
Attain meal replacement bar
turkey sandwich (2 slices of whole grain bread, mustard and 5 thin slices of turkey)
1/2 cup shredded skinless, boneless chicken breast cooked in Carne Asada sauce served over 3/4 cup brown rice
cooked spinach with balsamic vinegar
8 oz of 1% milk with 2 tbs. Nesquik sugar free chocolate mix
Wow, that looks like so much more food than what it felt like! :)
FOOD LOG:
Access bar (Fat conversion bar)
3 egg whites with a pinch of Parmesan cheese
1 apple
Fiber Wise (high fiber drink)
Attain meal replacement bar
turkey sandwich (2 slices of whole grain bread, mustard and 5 thin slices of turkey)
1/2 cup shredded skinless, boneless chicken breast cooked in Carne Asada sauce served over 3/4 cup brown rice
cooked spinach with balsamic vinegar
8 oz of 1% milk with 2 tbs. Nesquik sugar free chocolate mix
Wow, that looks like so much more food than what it felt like! :)
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Weigh -in March 7, 2010
This is the terrifying part to me. My husband doesn't even know my exact weight! (Well, I guess he does now!) I get sick to my stomach picturing friends, family and strangers knowing how much I weigh. But this journey is not about staying in my comfort zone. So here goes ...
As of today my weight is:
273.5
As of today my weight is:
273.5
Saturday, March 6, 2010
"WOW! Mommy! You have a REALLY fat butt!"
This was my four year old daughter's comment to me last week when she came into my bathroom just as I was getting into the shower! Oh, from the mouth of babes! And sadly enough, this was not the first time I have heard this same thing. But I will get into that later. I can't say that her comment is the main reason for my motivation to finally do something real about my weight, but it certainly adds to my motivation.
I am a business owner, and one of the many things I have learned from my experience of being my own boss is that accountability is essential in reaching goals. Since I am my own boss, decide my own activities and decide my own hours it is easy to get off course if I am not accountable to someone. That is one of the main reasons I decided to create this blog. I need a way to be accountable in regard to my weight loss. I am taking a very bold step outside of my comfort zone to make my struggle with my weight and efforts to lose weight public information. I mean, honestly ... everyone who knows me, knows I am fat. It is not like I am really hiding it from anyone, but still, it is quite scary for me to just put it all out there.
The second reason for this blog is for me to "journal my journey". My battle with weight is not only physical, but also very emotional. I know I need to start being very honest about my emotions and why I "eat my emotions".
A lot of the information on here may be boring to the reader and might seem quite self indulgent and may not be witty or exciting, so for that I apologize in advance. However, I think this will be an essential tool in my weight loss efforts. Unfortunately, I do care what other people think. Since this is not exactly a quality about myself that I like, but have not been successful in overcoming it, I figure I will use it to my advantage. If I know people, whether I know them or not, are at least randomly checking my blog, it will motivate me to stick to my goals.
Having all that said, here goes my story of how I got to the place that I am now and how I plan to change it and get to my goal weight and fitness goals.
I have not struggled with my weight my whole life. I grew up quite active, participating in many sport and activities. I was blessed with more than abundant height. I am 6'1'' tall. Along with my height, came the expectation of me to play sports. I played basketball and volleyball in high school. Wasn't too crazy about basketball, but loved and, still to this day, love volleyball. My family and I skied during the winter. I loved to backpack and hike. In college I started running and enjoyed that also. So, overall I grew up having a pretty active lifestyle.
I grew up in a home where we LOVED good food and LOVED to eat lots of it. My mom was blessed with a very active metabolism, so she could eat anything she wanted and not gain a pound (oh how unfair that I did not receive that gene!) and I think I just grew up assuming that everyone could do the same. We had ice cream for dessert pretty much every single night. It was either ice cream or popcorn. My mom is also an incredible cook, so once again we all love food. Luckily enough, growing up I could eat all that wonderful food and great desserts and really not have it affect my weight. I can't say that I was always stick thin, but I never really worried about my weight. I don't even remember stepping onto a scale until I was about 21 years old!
My struggle with weight began at about 23. I had just gotten home from spending 18 months in South Africa as a missionary. I was eating a lot more fried food and fast food. It finally started catching up with me. I was not what I would consider fat, but I had put on probably about 25 lbs. and it was somewhat noticeable (Luckily, being 6'1'' 25 lbs is not as apparent as on an average sized woman). The month that I turned 24, I got married. This is when I first heard the words "your butt is really fat". My now ex-husband, decided to be so romantic and the first time he saw me without clothes on, (on our honeymoon) decided to tell me that he thought I had a fat butt and that was one of the first things he noticed about me when we first met. He was kind enough to inform me though, that he decided to look past it because he thought I was pretty and figured "we" could get rid of my fat butt by making sure I went to the gym a lot. Wasn't he such a gem!?!?! Needless to say, I started having a complex about my weight and especially about my butt.
Without going into a ton of detail, I will just say that over the next 5 years I lived in a very abusive relationship and I also gave birth to three children. I gained huge amounts of weight with each pregnancy and in between, because once again, I tend to "eat my emotions" and in an abusive marriage, there were plenty of emotions to eat. After giving birth to my third child I weighed 280 lbs. When she was only 2 months old, I divorced my husband. Over the following 2 years I managed to lose 100 lbs. Also, during those two years I got remarried (to a wonderful man that would never tell me that my butt is fat .. even though it is very, very fat at the moment!) And then we decided to have children together. I gave birth to two more children and managed to gain back the majority of the weight I had lost.
I have always considered my weight problems to be temporary. I am done having children. I assumed that as soon as I was done with having babies I would just simply lose the weight and that would be that. Well, my baby is now two years old, and in-spite of many different attempts as losing weight, I am currently weigh only a few lbs. less than I did when my last daughter was born.
It is time for me to get serious about losing this weight. I need to get to a healthy weight not only for my self esteem but also for my overall health. I feel a lot of guilt that I am setting such a horrible example for my children, especially my three daughters. I don't want them to grow up thinking that it is okay to live the way that I am living.
I also realize that it is ridiculous that I have the best weight loss and nutritional products in the world at my disposal (through my business) and I am not only not using them, but I am being somewhat of a hypocrite by telling people how fabulous they are and that they should use them,when I myself am not doing the same.
So, I am ready to start on this journey. I will weigh myself once a week, on Sundays. I will then post my weight on here each week. I will keep track of what I eat each day and also post that on here. I will be getting up at 5am each morning and spending 2 hours exercising. I will walk/run on my treadmill as well as do resistance training.
I have two main goals that I plan to achieve within the next year.
1) reach my goal weight of 160 lbs. (or so, I say or so because I have never been to 160 in my adult life, so I am not sure how it will look on me).
2)I want to run a marathon. Not sure why I have this in my head. I have never run further than 4 miles, but still, this has been on my "bucket list" and I figure this is the ideal time to do it!
I am sure I will add other goals to this list as time goes on.
If you are reading this, thank you for stopping by and checking out my blog and thank you for your support!
I am a business owner, and one of the many things I have learned from my experience of being my own boss is that accountability is essential in reaching goals. Since I am my own boss, decide my own activities and decide my own hours it is easy to get off course if I am not accountable to someone. That is one of the main reasons I decided to create this blog. I need a way to be accountable in regard to my weight loss. I am taking a very bold step outside of my comfort zone to make my struggle with my weight and efforts to lose weight public information. I mean, honestly ... everyone who knows me, knows I am fat. It is not like I am really hiding it from anyone, but still, it is quite scary for me to just put it all out there.
The second reason for this blog is for me to "journal my journey". My battle with weight is not only physical, but also very emotional. I know I need to start being very honest about my emotions and why I "eat my emotions".
A lot of the information on here may be boring to the reader and might seem quite self indulgent and may not be witty or exciting, so for that I apologize in advance. However, I think this will be an essential tool in my weight loss efforts. Unfortunately, I do care what other people think. Since this is not exactly a quality about myself that I like, but have not been successful in overcoming it, I figure I will use it to my advantage. If I know people, whether I know them or not, are at least randomly checking my blog, it will motivate me to stick to my goals.
Having all that said, here goes my story of how I got to the place that I am now and how I plan to change it and get to my goal weight and fitness goals.
I have not struggled with my weight my whole life. I grew up quite active, participating in many sport and activities. I was blessed with more than abundant height. I am 6'1'' tall. Along with my height, came the expectation of me to play sports. I played basketball and volleyball in high school. Wasn't too crazy about basketball, but loved and, still to this day, love volleyball. My family and I skied during the winter. I loved to backpack and hike. In college I started running and enjoyed that also. So, overall I grew up having a pretty active lifestyle.
I grew up in a home where we LOVED good food and LOVED to eat lots of it. My mom was blessed with a very active metabolism, so she could eat anything she wanted and not gain a pound (oh how unfair that I did not receive that gene!) and I think I just grew up assuming that everyone could do the same. We had ice cream for dessert pretty much every single night. It was either ice cream or popcorn. My mom is also an incredible cook, so once again we all love food. Luckily enough, growing up I could eat all that wonderful food and great desserts and really not have it affect my weight. I can't say that I was always stick thin, but I never really worried about my weight. I don't even remember stepping onto a scale until I was about 21 years old!
My struggle with weight began at about 23. I had just gotten home from spending 18 months in South Africa as a missionary. I was eating a lot more fried food and fast food. It finally started catching up with me. I was not what I would consider fat, but I had put on probably about 25 lbs. and it was somewhat noticeable (Luckily, being 6'1'' 25 lbs is not as apparent as on an average sized woman). The month that I turned 24, I got married. This is when I first heard the words "your butt is really fat". My now ex-husband, decided to be so romantic and the first time he saw me without clothes on, (on our honeymoon) decided to tell me that he thought I had a fat butt and that was one of the first things he noticed about me when we first met. He was kind enough to inform me though, that he decided to look past it because he thought I was pretty and figured "we" could get rid of my fat butt by making sure I went to the gym a lot. Wasn't he such a gem!?!?! Needless to say, I started having a complex about my weight and especially about my butt.
Without going into a ton of detail, I will just say that over the next 5 years I lived in a very abusive relationship and I also gave birth to three children. I gained huge amounts of weight with each pregnancy and in between, because once again, I tend to "eat my emotions" and in an abusive marriage, there were plenty of emotions to eat. After giving birth to my third child I weighed 280 lbs. When she was only 2 months old, I divorced my husband. Over the following 2 years I managed to lose 100 lbs. Also, during those two years I got remarried (to a wonderful man that would never tell me that my butt is fat .. even though it is very, very fat at the moment!) And then we decided to have children together. I gave birth to two more children and managed to gain back the majority of the weight I had lost.
I have always considered my weight problems to be temporary. I am done having children. I assumed that as soon as I was done with having babies I would just simply lose the weight and that would be that. Well, my baby is now two years old, and in-spite of many different attempts as losing weight, I am currently weigh only a few lbs. less than I did when my last daughter was born.
It is time for me to get serious about losing this weight. I need to get to a healthy weight not only for my self esteem but also for my overall health. I feel a lot of guilt that I am setting such a horrible example for my children, especially my three daughters. I don't want them to grow up thinking that it is okay to live the way that I am living.
I also realize that it is ridiculous that I have the best weight loss and nutritional products in the world at my disposal (through my business) and I am not only not using them, but I am being somewhat of a hypocrite by telling people how fabulous they are and that they should use them,when I myself am not doing the same.
So, I am ready to start on this journey. I will weigh myself once a week, on Sundays. I will then post my weight on here each week. I will keep track of what I eat each day and also post that on here. I will be getting up at 5am each morning and spending 2 hours exercising. I will walk/run on my treadmill as well as do resistance training.
I have two main goals that I plan to achieve within the next year.
1) reach my goal weight of 160 lbs. (or so, I say or so because I have never been to 160 in my adult life, so I am not sure how it will look on me).
2)I want to run a marathon. Not sure why I have this in my head. I have never run further than 4 miles, but still, this has been on my "bucket list" and I figure this is the ideal time to do it!
I am sure I will add other goals to this list as time goes on.
If you are reading this, thank you for stopping by and checking out my blog and thank you for your support!
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